All my life, I have been able to picture the things I wanted - I would see something in my mind's eye, and I would keep it there frozen, you know, like a snapshot - and... and then I would do whatever it took to make that picture real, and then I'd, you know, move on to the next thing; but, with Leo... I can see him... coming home like he's ten minutes late for dinner or something, and... I mean, I can... I can see it so... clearly, and I want it so bad... you know, but I... I mean, I... I-I ...